[At his words, however, there was a naked look of vulnerability on his face. Xichen sat between them like a ghost. The words from his last conversation with his second brother echoing in the back of his head. At the time when he fled from Koi Tower, he did feel like not only was he running but he was trying to tourniquet that bleeding wound by himself, as he always had.
It did hurt deeply at the end of it. It made sense. Even with this time gap Mingjue and Xichen had more mileage, who was he in that aside from the person who ruined their lives?
The crueler part of his mind whispered that no one chooses him and he shook it away. It wasn't true. He had proof of that now.
Ziyao had a hard time meeting his eyes, his smile sad.]
I... know.
It isn't the first time I've been alone in hostile territory and it isn't as if I do not have support. My brother and his wife live with me, as well as Kore...It isn't as hostile as some of the other battlefields, I've survived in. [He said quietly.]
He needed you more.
[His smile was soft and kind. His expression softening somewhat.]
I do appreciate the sentiment, however, I missed you as well. I need to tell you something important though.
[He took a breath and let it go, along with the old pain. The path he wanted to walk with his eldest brother was a different one than what he wanted before.]
I am seeing someone. It is serious even though we have been trying to take it slow.
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Date: 2021-09-02 05:06 am (UTC)[At his words, however, there was a naked look of vulnerability on his face. Xichen sat between them like a ghost. The words from his last conversation with his second brother echoing in the back of his head. At the time when he fled from Koi Tower, he did feel like not only was he running but he was trying to tourniquet that bleeding wound by himself, as he always had.
It did hurt deeply at the end of it. It made sense. Even with this time gap Mingjue and Xichen had more mileage, who was he in that aside from the person who ruined their lives?
The crueler part of his mind whispered that no one chooses him and he shook it away. It wasn't true. He had proof of that now.
Ziyao had a hard time meeting his eyes, his smile sad.]
I... know.
It isn't the first time I've been alone in hostile territory and it isn't as if I do not have support. My brother and his wife live with me, as well as Kore...It isn't as hostile as some of the other battlefields, I've survived in. [He said quietly.]
He needed you more.
[His smile was soft and kind. His expression softening somewhat.]
I do appreciate the sentiment, however, I missed you as well. I need to tell you something important though.
[He took a breath and let it go, along with the old pain. The path he wanted to walk with his eldest brother was a different one than what he wanted before.]
I am seeing someone. It is serious even though we have been trying to take it slow.