[Huaisang exhales a sigh of relief. He dares not say more than this. Not at this time, at least. If not for his promise, he'd reveal everything so that Nie Mingjue would be fully prepared when dealing with the viper he's in bed with. He can tell his brother understands enough by his agitation and hopefully, that'll be enough to keep him alive in the days ahead. In the end, not even Jin Guangyao's nephew he'd helped raise had been safe from him. What faith could Huaisang have that whatever impulsive fancy the man has for his older brother would be strong enough to protect him if things don't go well for him now?
He swallows hard before closing the distance between them, flinging his arms around Nie Mingjue just as he'd done that first day he'd seen him at the diner. He's trembling a bit; speaking of what had happened, even in cryptic metaphor still hadn't been easy on him. But if it helps his brother be any safer, bringing those painful memories back to the surface after finally starting to put them to rest will make this one last sacrifice on his behalf worth it.
He buries his face in Nie Mingjue's shoulder and lets himself cry. Maybe if he sheds enough tears, the horrible fear and anxiety he's lived with for so long will finally leave him. It was finished. He doesn't want to keep living in constant fear, turmoil, and misery here, too. After a bit, he pulls his head back, wiping at his eyes with a sleeve.]
Be careful, da ge. I don't think I could take losing you a third time. Not until it's time for either of us to go home again.
[The sea could call them home at any time, he's discovered, and he's already preparing himself for that eventuality.]
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and he's crying again hahasob
Date: 2021-06-09 07:45 pm (UTC)He swallows hard before closing the distance between them, flinging his arms around Nie Mingjue just as he'd done that first day he'd seen him at the diner. He's trembling a bit; speaking of what had happened, even in cryptic metaphor still hadn't been easy on him. But if it helps his brother be any safer, bringing those painful memories back to the surface after finally starting to put them to rest will make this one last sacrifice on his behalf worth it.
He buries his face in Nie Mingjue's shoulder and lets himself cry. Maybe if he sheds enough tears, the horrible fear and anxiety he's lived with for so long will finally leave him. It was finished. He doesn't want to keep living in constant fear, turmoil, and misery here, too. After a bit, he pulls his head back, wiping at his eyes with a sleeve.]
Be careful, da ge. I don't think I could take losing you a third time. Not until it's time for either of us to go home again.
[The sea could call them home at any time, he's discovered, and he's already preparing himself for that eventuality.]