Xichen's quiet as he speaks and for a few moments after before setting his own utensils down to respond, his voice quiet. "I know, Mingjue." That he wouldn't have acted on his desires, even if he'd acknowledged him and Xichen knows he'd have made the same choice, to a degree.
But if either had made the first move, resisting them would have been just as difficult."I can't say I wouldn't have responded the same way at home, given the opportunity, but I don't..." He trails off, clears his throat and looks down at his food.
"And if we're being honest, I don't think I could have accepted A-Yao after his wedding. I likely shouldn't have here because of it, but it doesn't change the fact I gave in and I wanted it." Had craved it in a way he'd never expected. "Exposure may make it easier to resist as time passes though."
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Date: 2021-05-17 01:09 am (UTC)But if either had made the first move, resisting them would have been just as difficult."I can't say I wouldn't have responded the same way at home, given the opportunity, but I don't..." He trails off, clears his throat and looks down at his food.
"And if we're being honest, I don't think I could have accepted A-Yao after his wedding. I likely shouldn't have here because of it, but it doesn't change the fact I gave in and I wanted it." Had craved it in a way he'd never expected. "Exposure may make it easier to resist as time passes though."